I was going to type out all of these feelings I've been having... especially tonight... I mean, I confessed to something I did a while ago, it wasn't really that bad, just something I never told him before. And he went ballistic... and again he just said the same things, again!
Ok, yeah I know you don't love me. Yep, and I think I've heard that you hate me somewhere before, too? Oh really, we're done now? I thought, I'm pretty positive actually, that we broke up 4 weeks ago?
IRONY.
But now.... instead of typing all the feelings I was feeling... I'm going to go to bed. The one thing I will say is... that this is the first time I've done something to hurt someone, intentionally. I know he can't control himself. I know no-matter how often he says he doesn't love me... he's just an idiot really. And now? I feel good. It feels good to give him just the slightest little idea of how he's made me feel for 5 years. I promise, to myself, that I won't ever do something to hurt someone again though. No matter how much they deserve it. I don't want to end up like him... I was just playing at being him for the night.
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